I'm in an emotion-free relationship.(Well, by now i guess i can finally see it IS a relationship anyway.)
And i like it this emotion-free way. I probably choose it to be this way. Anyway i definitely do not object.
Is it good or sad?
Well, normally i tend to think it is good. But this morning i woke up with melancholy rather than with the man...
I guess it's all due to the effect of "Momentary Thing" that started playing out of the blue...i-pod at the right moment to remind me that it's probably not really me here and now...no, it's me. It's just not my heart. It's not Like my heart. I've deliberately let mine rest a while, be it for the better or for the worse.
At the moment i think it's rather for the better.
...And there comes "Momentary Thng" and tells me "come on, Lola, you can't really fool yourself into believing you don't want passion anymore..." is it really that i can't take it anymore? je m'en mefie maintenant. Tout simplement. Finallement.
...Or maybe I'm just looking secretely for an even more mind-blowing modification of my emotion-drug now and don't find it. So i substitute it? Cos the old one does't work right for me anymore either, it's got major side effects now...